What Is Wrong With Me

The rejection is horrible!  What is wrong with me?  Why am I not good enough?  Ugh...I am sitting at my computer seeking a job with every avenue day after day. I am networking.  I am attending networking events.  I am exhausted mentally and psychologically.  I am not working out..no energy.  I am not eating well.  January 4th I finally make it to the gym.  I decide to weigh myself..not a fan of weighing myself because I'm a chic and we don't like scales. But I do anyway.  I get on the electronic one and the number is low.  Seriously this must be broken.  Did I really lose 6 pounds in a month!?!  I sprint up to the upper level where they have a scale like at the doctor's office.  Holy shit balls...I did...I lost 6 pounds.  Standing there with tears in my eyes..I leave.